Hey family , It’s hard to put in words what I feel , but today it is for so many reasons. I start my new therapy next Tuesday. I am scared and excited all at the same time , my whole functions in life so far has been dealing with chaos and after the therapy my mind will know peace .
It is something new and so positive my mind is screaming yes , and yes it is a yes it begins. To be honest I am worried about the positive outcome for once lol.
I am at no cross road just a straight line , it feels good to be able to have a chance to explore such ventures. Rewind time and the reminder says nothing more than stop and only the play button works. No one can prepare you for what you have been dreaming of which is 24hours of a better lifestyle . The therapy will not eliminate everything but the trauma will be reduced and I can take in more things by this time.
This is my time to finally make peace with myself , in some ways I know tears will fall but I will finally be able to take in myself , my demon which is me. My chance to fix my heart and be okay with the constant fight drizzling to a conversation.
Having the potential of a semi normal life , not cured but more relaxed and able to process things without waiting 24 hours. I like to be known for myself but not for personal gain just as an example that change can happen no matter how little or big it is. the courage it takes to face yourself is the hardest journey.
I feel embraced but still I imagined doubt but there is none , I am ready to let it go and I no longer need to be labeled , I will have bpd and my chronic illnesses but the end result will boost me as a person, I came up with an idea for a tattoo
- As a child i was broken but as a person I walk passed you
- What i become is my creation
- My heart broke , my soul stood up
They are a few ideas , they are cool , I am coming up with good thoughts lately , but all things aside , I am like a kid at a candy store , just waiting to pick what chocolate I want.
I hope you are all good , Sorry for my silence but I have been busy with other things.
I have a you tube channel I will give you the address , your support would be awesome.